Stressed

Today I had a housemate move in. Not only that, she comes with a dog and two birds into my cat dominated household.

I am stressed.

I know it will take some time for the cats to adjust. And on one level I know it will be okay. But I am so stressed. The cats have been under my bed all day and did not come out until just a moment ago when they realised that the dog and new housemate weren't around. In one hour, they will be back. An hour's grace...

To have a housemate is something that I have wanted for myself for a long time. I just didn't expect it to come with a dog! I am sure it is just the dog/cat thing that I am stressed about. However, I know that it is also a big adjustment for me to live with someone. I have lived by myself for SO long. If I had my cats by my side, I would be better. But I am worried about them.

Everyone I speak to says they will be fine in time. Might take a couple of weeks, but they will be fine. So far it is only a day.

Right now, I am grateful to have Kiara by my side as I type. And I can hear Raphael eating his dinner. I am grateful that they got to eat dinner in safety and normality. Soon, they will be under the bed again, I am sure.

With any luck a walk with have worn out Lacey and she will not be so hypo. I hope the cats join me watching TV tonight as they normally do. Somehow I doubt it.

I know I have to appear normal and relaxed and calm with the situation. That will help them.

Phew, what a big change in my life. I am restless. I am stressed. I just want to relax and wind down for the evening, but I can't. Maybe some chamomile tea will help. I love my cats. I love having them around me. They are so peaceful and soothing and loving and comforting. I have been acutely aware of that more than ever the last couple of weeks, so to have not had them around me today and to know they were hiding from a situation that is now permanent in this household - well it is has taken it's toll.

For the remainder of the evening, I will try and chill and be myself. I will continue to come up to them and pat them and love them. And maybe we can even try a bit of interaction... or maybe not.

Any advice???

Collapse...

Stay tuned!

I've never been this quiet on my blog before. Even my computer is rarely on at the moment.


Something new is brewing.
I'm not sure what it is, but I feel a shift.


I'm not sure when it will happen. I just know it will.


Stay tuned...!!!!

Collapse...

Walk the Talk

I added a new link to my Cherised Blessing movies in my sidebar today.
The email to view it has been sitting in my inbox for a month.
Today I finally viewed it.
It was perfect.
It was peaceful.
It is beautiful.
It is centering.
It is motivational
It is calming.

Here it is - Do you walk the talk?

Collapse...

Todays Sunday photo

I love this photo. I love the shades and the shadows. I love the bird in shadow. I love the light of the sun on one side of the photo. It is simple yet I have fallen in love with it.

No news today, just the photo.

Enjoy!

Collapse...

A breath of cool air!

I am sitting in my lounge room this evening, with a beautiful cool breeze flowing through the door. Today has been such a refreshing change. The air has been almost cold! Not cold enough for a jacket of course. It was still 30 degrees today, but the breeze has been almost chilly! Right now it is down to 19 degrees - it hasn't gotten that low in 2 weeks. Aaaahhhhhhhhhh......

It's been interesting to see a lot of people bottoming out today. Students and staff have been tired and a little lethargic. And while I haven't felt that, I did struggle a bit at Curves today. The change of weather is possible I guess. The hot weather certainly took its toll on everyone and the overcast day today after SO much sunshine can be an affecting change on our pysches.

The heatwave was officially 15 days. My goodness. It is being called a 1 in 3000 chance to have this kind of weather in March. A sign of climate change? Maybe.

All I know is how wonderful it was to feel the cool change and it was a topic of conversation all day today with everyone you came across!

Collapse...

Sunday's new beach discovery!

Today was one of those photographers heaven days. It was a glorious day. I went to a new beach that I fell in love with almost immediately. And as I discovered it's wonders, my camera's eye was ecstatic!

There were just so many great shots I got from this morning, that it will keep me going posting them for at least a week! So many interesting things to photograph - ruins, cliffs, rocks, corners - the nature was spectacular and I had a ball!

The remains of the old jetty

The wonder of the cliffs

A view of the beach, cliffs and the jetty ruins.

I went on to the weather page today to see what was happening with our heatwave. I was SO pleased to see that the cool change will come in a day earlier than expected. So just one more day of extreme weather in the high 30's and 40's, and then we go down to low 30's one day and then high 20's the next. Pheww!! It will then sit around the low 30's high 20's for a few days.

So while I really enjoyed the weather this morning and the sun set a beautiful setting for taking photos, it will be a relief.

I went out early this morning and I loved the temperature. There was enough of a breeze that the heat didn't hang on you and I enjoyed the healthy sweat that built as I was walking!

By 11 am though, I realised I was starting to burn and decided to turn back. And by the time I got home at around 12.00, the heat was starting to invade ones senses.

There was also a scary moment today with a fire just a few hundred metres away from my home. I got a slight whiff of smoke coming through the air con vents that continued to get stronger and stronger. I looked out the back and saw smoke filling the air. So, I grabbed my phone and went to investigate. As I did the fire engines arrived. Phewww.

It was a brush fire in between some of the new homes further down. Fortunately it was under control before it could spread to them. But it was a concern. Just a little too close for comfort for me!

Collapse...

Ravings...

I sit here this Saturday afternoon wishing there wasn't work hanging over my head. Wishing that I could simply appreciate a Saturday afternoon for the leisure that it is. Mmm. Perhaps I will just do that... No, it is still there... Calling at me... Leave it for now, Annie...

I got up early this morning to get a good walk in before the heat began to blanket me like syrup.
Now I am cocooned in my air conditioned house, fruit and veg shopping down, and a couple of loads of laundry hanging on the line.
Solitude is what hangs around me now, like a thick skin enveloping my senses.
If only there was a phone call...

Things have been much better these last two days. The challenges of an eating disorder have taken a back stage and healthy eating is the normal thing it should be.
I am proud of myself for the way I handled my two days of challenge. And I am amazed it was only two days. Somehow, through it all, I still shifted some weight and my black pants are ready to be worn. I am grateful. Today is proving to be a mild challenge, but nothing I can't handle. Nothing that requires a blogging release in My New Life.

I seek the friendship of the blogging world in this post. I am grateful for it, yet also feel saddened that my world this weekend consists of computer friendship. And why? Because this weekend I haven't made the phone calls. Yes, I know I have mentioned this before. And yes, my life is SO much better than it was. Yet, this little fact remains. The last two weekends I organised stuff and had a great time. This weekend I haven't and thus, remain solo. Tthhhhhhrrrrrrrrrr to that! One day I will get a phone call in return.

Having said that, I have been in touch with my non-local friends more this week. Phone calls from a country friend and interstate friend have been good and so appreciated. I think that things will be more consistent with both these friends now. At least I hope so! I am good at balance. The give and take and exchange of maintaining connections. It is easy for me to do that. It is in my nature. Even when a relationship has been a constant joy in my life, my friends have never taken a back seat.

Work... it is pressing on me. No, today is mine.

Collapse...